I've decided to drift away...reduce conversation, AVOID conversations, give one liners when UNneccesary, meet only if absolutely necessary.
A couple of days ago he came over and I heard him knock on the door but I pretended like there was no one home. I was sure he saw my car parked outside but I couldn't be bothered. I'm certain he cannot understand my behaviour, but I can so that's the way it's going to be...*hmmph***.
I have so much dignity, how is it even possible that I'm this madly in love with a guy. It is even eligible to be called madly in love? Anywaiz whateva this is, it's gotta go. I can't bear not knowing what this is, and I'm not prepared for a confrontation, it doesn't, never has, never will be something my character will accept as OKAY. NEVER!!!....
I'm not going to let this cute, kind, lovely, adorable guy change my rules!!
Yesterday, he checked up on my and I replied with the new style: ONE WORDS, very seldomly ONE LINERS. As he typed, I saw, "Mister is writing a message" several times with no message actually coming through, I could tell he was battling with what to say...
That touched me, cuz I started to feel bad...I mean here is someone who could be possibly head over heels for me and I'm treating him in a very confusing, unfriendly way because I can't put my feelings under control....*sigh*
Eventually, his words came through, "R U Ok?"
I replied, "yup"
That was the end!
Of course I was sad...infact whatever an even more expressive level of sadness is, is what I felt, but I knew there was no turning back. This is for MY own good. If he likes me, he should speak up and if not...then.....!!!!! *turns face to the side and sighs*
Last night, someone buzzed my apartment...quite late at night and I thought to myself, who is that person with no manners visiting at this time and most especially without a call?
It was him...
you can't possibly imagine the joy...the excitement that overwhelmed me
He came up, knocked on my door and I peeked just to double check....
He was so close to my peep hole, all I saw was his head. Thankfully I know that head. I opened up and let him in...
He came in with a little navy blue box and my favorite box of chocolates. We've never discussed my favourites, I couldn't tell how he knew. I asked what all this was for, all he said was open it.
I opened the box to see the most beautiful necklace ever. It was simple yet elegant.
After blushing, I quickly hid my emotions, closed the box and asked, "what's the occassion?"
He looked at me.
I turned my face away...
then he lifted my chin, stared me in the face and said...
I've watched you, spent time with you, refused to rush things and now I'm hoping we could attempt to make us work...
My heart started to beat so fast, I was nervous my blouse might have expressed the intensity. I tried calming myself down before I spoke because I didn't want him to know I had waited soo long for this...
Strangely at that point, I felt I needed more time to think because I wasn't expecting it.
After a few minutes of silence, I gathered up some courage and said.
Make what work? I'm working alright, are you broken?
We both laughed and he planted the bestest kiss ever on my lips. In that moment, my brain stopped working and my heart picked up pace....it was simply magical.
Fiction or Non-Fiction?
You call it.
Time to get back to work.
I love you!