No one can ever love me as much as he loves me
He gives me reason to wake up each morning
I serve him, with all I have, with all I've got
Of everything that is me, I give it all to him
When he says jump, I shall because I'm sure it would be for my good....
Every scar has a story
Every ache is worth it,
It all happened because, I was foolish to go against his wishes.
He hit me that I might get my ducks in a row and obey
at this point, I must confess
I've lost all that makes me, me and given it all up for him
My very essence, has ceased
My every purpose is nullified
You are not a puppet, a slave, a toy, a punching bag....
Understand this now, you are fearfully and wonderfully made, you are God's pride, if he was boastful, he would boast of you day and night. You are beauty. He made you with much thought. He created you to have dominion over the earth, to rule other creatures, not for your kind (man or woman) to rule and subdue you. The moment you become less than you are worth, not out of humility but stupidity, STOP...think...rewind...adjust...take a new direction in the path of peace/joy/love and keep it moving.
I sound like it's easy to do, right? NO. It's not easy, the best things you do for yourself are the hardest things, but buckle up, talk to a friend, a true friend...there must be shoulders you can lean on, hands you can hold. No man is or should be an island.
No man/ absolutely no one is allowed to raise their hands to hit you...(you should not be found verbally abusing either provoking the cause) - I'm not pointing fingers, cuz truthfully, I have been quite provoking too, countless times. Abuse is abuse. Verbally or physically.
Today I found myself getting angry, raising my voice and almost totally losing it and I had to hit the brakes. I stopped all arrangements to head out for a party because honestly that behaviour needs to be dealt with, NOW!. It's shameful, lacks self-control and it's absolutely futile. Someone explained the effects of anger thus:
A young boy got so mad, he wanted to explode, his dad then told him to take some nails, go to the wall and drill in.
After a few minutes he said, "dad, I'm no longer mad"
Then his dad said, "ok, go and take the nails out"
He did...(without a nail remover btw)
Then returned to his dad...
Then his dad said fill in the wall and put the wall back together like it was before...
and he replied, "wow, that would take some time, plus he would have to repaint the entire wall because the other parts were old paint..."
Those holes are what we do when we get so mad and out of control...it takes so long to repair, the expression/negatives of anger then become a regret.
We all fall short, we all fall prey, but what makes us wise is the effort to repair our wrongs..not just any effort but fruitful efforts...it's not wrong to get mad but the mess we produce from our anger is.
Many have controlled it, we can set it under control too.
Please read these two posts on Blessings Outlet and Unveiling Gold. It's on their personal experiences with abuse. Victors of abuse ought to be celebrated. It's not a call for a pity party. Read and be blessed.
If you're in the midst of such and you feel you deserve it, I hope someday you'd realize that there's greater love and peace for you in Christ. Many don't understand the love of God till they experience it first hand. Countless times it takes him pulling you our of a messed up mess for you to get it, I've been messy and he has pulled me out, that's why I get it and I'm not turning back.
I love you.