I am in awe of how much I can't do without God, He really helps me through all the mess I find myself in. I question how I got there, why I am there sometimes but I know the Lord has a very clear picture of what He's up to even though I don't get it and I am proud to put all my eggs in this one basket (God).
So here's the koko of the matter, when two people aren't reading the same chapter, yet alone the same book, just stop reading all together and listen to what God is telling you. Obedience to the voice of God and just chilling to see what he has planned and why he brought you to this dark, unpleasant valley, I find is the perfect answer. I've noticed that every time something isn't working out too well and I pray about it, the Lord always, always without fail gives me a sign/word. His word is true when he says;
Isaiah 43:2: When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
My word this time was "obey", I heard it too many times I can't even fake and ask, "I'm sorry Lord, did you say something?"
Although sometimes I feel like I'm alone, I never really am. Its those times when I get a little too relaxed.
Well I got myself into a minor heart ache which isn't exactly that grave but it did cause a little bleed. The weirdest thing is I get the guys' angle but we're just not in the same triangle at all. Funny how we've had to break a relationship that was never even formed....lol...(I lol now but Imma cry later...lol)
*he's the cutest ever btw*, but it is not cute I'm going to chop now
Proverbs 4:23 talks about guarding one's heart, which is what I've been doing o...jejely doing, until this dude dropped by my bbm. I was busy chatting on a friendly note...as the chatting was going and going...lol...I found out that after a month, feelings knocked...I was like, heck no...u can't stay so I told the dude we can't vibe on the same p and he didn't get it but he agreed. Say bout a week later we started talkin again..."just friends" n well u prolly know the rest of the story until recently we broke up our non-existent relationship...but I would say this..."there's something about this dude"....don't ask me what it is cause I donno, hence the messy mess I find myself in.
3 - 4 years into the future, I'm sure I'd know what it is, but for now God is my priority (infact and always) and anything that seems or is off track just can't remain...